Thursday, November 05, 2009
8:57 PM
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Ever dreamt of anything in your life and when it happened, you felt happy of course but slowly, you realise the after effect. To me, it no longer is a blessing and it seems more like a curse.

People changes with powers that are entitled to them. Maybe is the sudden responsibility that have changed the person but the main point is, changed. I used to scroll down my contact list on my handphone and I could easily pick out names to call, to sms. Finding people to go out with wasn't at all of any difficulty until recently.

I used to see a fire so big that it warmed the heart of others and what kept it going on is the oxygen and the firewood. The oxygen that represent us with our neverending support and the firewood, out efforts and heart. To be honest, it was never the best. The only thing that is supporting it is it's people. Now that the people have been neglected, all that are left is nothing but ashes. Scalded, burnt, charred.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Thursday, October 29, 2009
12:14 AM
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Been a long time since I see someone 'new' in my tagboard. All along I thought my blog is rather dead and other then the few loyal people, no one will bother to even come and read. There isn't much interesting stuff in my blog. I must say, I am quite surprise and yeah, suddenly I am thinking of a whole lot of things.

Anyway, I wanted to blog about NS stuff. But now, I forgot what I wanted to blog, so well, I will just random talk about it. First of all, I am still not confident. I really wish NS can be over fast. There are a lot of things that is restricted every since i entered NS. Hair length, hair colour, poker cards, camera and many other things. haha.. I'm complaining about NS again.. =x whatever..

Am I a teamplayer? or am I a solo-ist? I don't know why but recently, I seems to be trying to be solo in everything I do. Work wise, I don't seems to be maximizing the usage of everyone. I am like trying to get things done all by myself. When there are doubts, I dare not ask for help from the people around me. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.. haha.. retarded..

There are so many people in this world but it feels like I am all alone. Feeling so empty despite all the people standing around me.

Am I drifting away from all my friends? or are my friends are all drifting away from me?

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Friday, October 23, 2009
12:11 PM
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Just came back from my army cohesion thingy at one of the chalets in changi. It wasn't that bad, but I just ain't myself. Is this called grown up or what? I used to be a noisy senseless and full of rubbish person. Well, full of funny rubbish at least. But now, I am like a boring old man. Ya, what the hell.

I want to buy a weekend phone, or so called "ORD Phone". Should I? I am thinking what phone to buy also. I Phone? A lot of people is telling me to get I phone. Is it really so good? I wanted something with a good camera, so was thinking of Sony Ericsson C905 and W995i also. But I really don't know what to get. It's so damn hard to make up my mind.

BORED TO DEATH

I feel so.. I don't know how to describe this feeling. It's like I have got nothing to do at all. I am sitting down here, waiting for time to past and everyday I feel very much the same. No one to talk to, no one to go out with, no one to keep me company.

Sianz.. I can hear the thunder and I think it is going to rain le. -_- I think I am not skating for today. Perhaps town is a good idea afterall.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Wednesday, October 14, 2009
9:20 PM
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It is so hard to persuade, convince or whatever words you can think of. Somehow, I feel that people likes to wait for things to happen. Probably that's the reason why I kinda inculcate this habit of 'wandering' into myself. When people just ignore or give excuses not to go out, I did be lazy not to even persuade them anymore. As of now, I am lazy to even call people out to begin with. It's either I am being called or I will just go out myself and call the usual few and if they don't want to meet, I also don't really care. Reason is simple. If you are not interested, why should I persuade you out at all?

Life has been pretty dull for me. Work, go home, sleep. I don't get how people can take it doing nothing at home the whole day. If it's me, I did rather just go out alone and see people, or at least go East Coast Park to slack at Inline Culture shop. Actually, I feel that as IC is growing, it sort of lost the cosiness. The most important part is, the pride of being part of IC. I remember when I first wear the IC shirt, I was damn proud of it. It was mostly voluntary work. Events, shows, performances. I don't know if it's just me or it's still the same as before but the fire in everyone seems to be dying. Even the newer people who joined, their fire ain't strong at all. Maybe it was back then that it was the golden period for IC and now, that period is over. Anyway, I don't know why I side track till here. Yup, I can't stand being home doing nothing and maybe staring into the monitor.

I can't find my motivation in life. Inspiration too.. Am talking to jo lene in msn and she is reading my half done blog. ROAR~ =)

Anyway, I'm wondering how everyone is doing.. Most of my friends seems to be busy every single day. NS, studies, work. Seems like it will be hard to even find one day where everyone can meet up for maybe a movie, dinner, tour de orchard or whatever. Just to spend time together and talking cock together. Skating together to the jetty, sitting down and watching the stars and be happy just because we are all together.

Sometimes I wonder, is it people who don't understand me or is it me who don't understand people.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Saturday, October 10, 2009
9:04 PM
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I have somewhat lost it. I've lose the feel. I don't know. Thinking back, I don't know how did I managed to be so patient and do things for other people and it doesn't even benefit me a single bit. The best part is, I put in a lot of efforts knowing that it whatever I am doing is not for me. I looked into the mirror, I see another person. I wasn't the same person as before anymore. The me who have all the self-confidence, the me who will give my all to help my friends and the me who will go all out just to put a smile onto another's face.

Hatred is too strong a word to be use and not to mention, feel. But there is this hatred in me which I could not ward off. I hope it's the loneliness that is getting into me that makes me feel this way and not because of hatred itself.

All I asked for is to be happy and not wearing a mask with a smile.

Love is just another word which means painful in a special way.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

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I sort of lose my purpose in life already. I feel like a wanderer, someone who just walk anywhere he likes and do whatever he wants to do. To some extend it is good, but I am the sort who will just go alone if no one else wants to follow.

Most of my so called 'friends' are going their own ways which I, in all ways, dislike. People ask me to go experience it and I will be able to understand. Well, I experienced it and I find it totally wrong. Sorry, but I couldn't think of any better word to describe. Nevermind, I shall not explain further.

Pride. This is something many people are missing. I do not know why. I believe that everyone should be proud of who they are, what they are. If you are missing this, I think you better do something about it. Some say pride is useless and it's not 'edible'. The only reason why they say that is because they are feeling sour as they are unable to have the pride in them. If anything is to go against your pride, you should fight for it. If people are fighting for their pride, let them fight it out. It may be senseless to be fighting over something like this, but it is only with pride, we are able to hold ourselves up high. Even if it's just that little pride, it makes a different.

Female talking as though she is following the typical ah beng style of talking, females who have strong characters and wants to only win. These are disgusting people. Gender does makes a big difference. I don't care what are you going to think or comment when you read this especially if you are a female, but I am just going to say this. What a guy do which makes him looks cool to some may not be the same when a girl does it. A classic example is smoking. Lets face the fact. No matter how pretty or cute a girl is, the moment she smokes, IT IS A HUGE TURN OFF. Not to mention girls who talk big and worse still, it's about others and not herself. Also, stubborn females who will just not accept the fact that she lost are irritating too. It's good to have the fighting spirit, but to throw a tantrum after a losing? I shall not go on with this part as you guys should know, it is a total turn off.

Fishing in your own pond. This is a very familiar phrase to most of us, but I just want to clarify this part. If Person A knows Person B for like 1~3 months and they met each other like less then 10 times and decide to talk to one another. Is that considered fishing in your own pond? Another thing about this is, for you to 'fish', you will probably want get to know the person better first. And when you get to know the person better, isn't it going to be fishing in your own pond since you know that person well already? Think twice before making a comment, especially when it relates to me, regardless if it directly or indirectly concern me.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Monday, October 05, 2009
9:58 PM
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What is it with people and alcohol? If I rule the world, that would be the first thing i will get rid of other then ciggerettes. I think I did mention before but anyway, I think that the best melody is silence. I have never liked music that are noisy and I feel that this is a very opinion based statement. To me, the so called nice songs you hear in clubs are considered noise to me. I don't know why I dislike those genre of songs and to add on to it, I feel that most of the song doesn't even have a meaning behind it.

A matchstick without a light, is nothing more then an individual. It takes a combination of two different subjects to start the spark which will in time grow into a flame. I feel as though I have lost touch with the world. I need someone I can hold on to, someone who will be there to hold me tight and not let me go.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]

Saturday, September 26, 2009
2:47 PM
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Work, eat, sleep. It seems that adulthood seems to be very boring. It's like you are engulfed in a ball of flame, burning you everytime you try to make things a little different. The system is flawed. It makes us humans seems nothing less then robots. You may argue with the fact that there is always a Saturday and Sunday and I agree but the thing is, don't you feel everything that you do are less fun then before? It's like as said, the good old days.

What is it that make people change? a year ago, we were like crazy people who doesn't think of consequences when doing things and yet a year later, we become less active and think so much before doing anything.

It's been years I have been living with this loneliness that's in me. When I'm in Secondary school, I was naive enough to think that everyone is my friend and slowly, I come to realise that there are many people with 2 faces, people who are cold blooded. How is killing people that are closer to you makes you happy? I don't see a point but yet, that seems to be the cold reality of life. I experience a small bit of it during my tour in NS. Back in BMTC, everyone is sincere and straight forward. In OCS, thats where I experience all the backstabbing. Is it true that people who are 'higher' are sadly the people who have to put on faces just so they can portray a good image of themselves? I felt it was unneccesary to do such stuffs.

All everyone think of is chainging the world and in the end, the only thing that changed is themself.

♥ F r o z e n P r i n c e ♥

[[*. wHat mAkeS yOu diFFeRenT mAkeS yoU beAutiFuL .*]]